I’ve heard people talk about the January blues before but I’ve never had it myself. That is until this year. Personally I don’t do New Years Resolutions but I do see a new year as a fresh start. Wiping the slate clean so to speak. But this year I just feel deflated.
I had an extended break over Christmas as Lee was off work, the kids were home and I just needed a rest after the hectic excitement of the run up to Christmas. It was so lovely to spend time with everyone home all together, but to be honest I think that break, alongside the horrendous weather and seemingly endless darkness is what broke me!
For over two weeks, I barely switched on my phone or opened a web browser other than to dive headlong into the vacuum that is facebook or to watch some TV shows. I knew the latter was a really bad idea as soon as I had watched the entire first season of Medium in just a couple of days.
The only TV we can watch here is through the internet. I rarely watch television shows apart from some on BBC iplayer like QI or Doctor Who. But I know too well that starting to watch something, especially when there are eight complete seasons right there in front of me, is going to suck the life, and my brain power, right out of me, I’m like an addict. And yet I still started!
Once everyone went back to school and work I tried to get back into my normal routines but I have been in a complete funk. I’ve had no desire to do anything other than watch TV in my spare time, all my creativity seems to have dried up and I’m filled with this overwhelming feeling of being unfulfilled, like I am in limbo while the world is rushing past at break neck speed.
Now I just feel blue.
The recent change in the weather has been nice, we have had some positively lovely days, which has really helped. I’m much happier to wrap up against the biting cold than I am to getting windswept and soaking wet every time I step out the door. We have also had snow forecast over the next few days. We all love geting out and playing on sledges, building snowmen and going for walks. I’m really hoping this is what I need to help blow away the cobwebs and finally get my braincells kick started again. If not I’m going to have to give myself a swift kick up the backside.
And I promise not to start any new TV series’ once I’ve finished the ones I watching!